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Stress and a bonus extra
Short form: Apologies to any who I might be short with for the next while, I've got some stress I'm having trouble dealing with, and it may bleed over into my online interactions.
First off, I'm not going to go into details about the stress in a non-friendslocked post. And since there's not a lot of discussion potential here without details, I'm disabling comments. This is more in the lines of a warning notice than in invitation to talk about matters, sorry.
Right now, I've got a lot of stressors hitting me from various angles, and they're mainly things that are resistant to my usual coping methods. As a result, I'm feeling a lot more stressed out than I have been in a long time...and yeah, that counts the diabetes diagnosis. While that may have objectively been a bigger stressor, it's one that was amenable to my coping schemes (plus I was so fatigued and logy from the diabetes side effects that I had trouble working up a good head of steam anyway). So I'm feeling kinda brainburned and worried and out of sorts.
However, what makes it worse is that I know that others have it far worse. I personally know people who are jobless and effectively homeless. People suffering from serious conditions that make diabetes look like a hangnail. People who lost major property from weather disasters. People who can't even go back to their home countries without a significant chance of being killed. In short, I know plenty of people under a lot worse stressors than I am.
You know what? It doesn't make my stress go away. But it does make me feel like a jerk for being stressed out. Not only am I brainburned and worried and out of sorts, I feel guilty about the fact that I'm letting such relatively small issues get to me. So telling me "It could be worse" doesn't help, it just reinforces the guilt feelings.
Anyway, so far I'm managing to not let my stressed-out state translate into lashing out at anyone handy, but it could start happening, and I apologize in advance if it does.
First off, I'm not going to go into details about the stress in a non-friendslocked post. And since there's not a lot of discussion potential here without details, I'm disabling comments. This is more in the lines of a warning notice than in invitation to talk about matters, sorry.
Right now, I've got a lot of stressors hitting me from various angles, and they're mainly things that are resistant to my usual coping methods. As a result, I'm feeling a lot more stressed out than I have been in a long time...and yeah, that counts the diabetes diagnosis. While that may have objectively been a bigger stressor, it's one that was amenable to my coping schemes (plus I was so fatigued and logy from the diabetes side effects that I had trouble working up a good head of steam anyway). So I'm feeling kinda brainburned and worried and out of sorts.
However, what makes it worse is that I know that others have it far worse. I personally know people who are jobless and effectively homeless. People suffering from serious conditions that make diabetes look like a hangnail. People who lost major property from weather disasters. People who can't even go back to their home countries without a significant chance of being killed. In short, I know plenty of people under a lot worse stressors than I am.
You know what? It doesn't make my stress go away. But it does make me feel like a jerk for being stressed out. Not only am I brainburned and worried and out of sorts, I feel guilty about the fact that I'm letting such relatively small issues get to me. So telling me "It could be worse" doesn't help, it just reinforces the guilt feelings.
Anyway, so far I'm managing to not let my stressed-out state translate into lashing out at anyone handy, but it could start happening, and I apologize in advance if it does.